How do you trust when your trust has been batter a few times ? How do you let your guard down to someone new ? They saying some things but you on the fence? Is it your trust issues or is this person for real? Have you truly moved on from your last experience ? Have you forgiven ? These are questions I’ve been asking myself when I’m thinking about the word “Trust” . Not everyone is trustworthy but you gotta trust someone right? When you can’t trust someone new , we are judging them based on our last experience, at least I am which means you haven’t truly let go of the past. But how expect new things to come if you don’t let go?
Forgiveness is a process that has taken time for me to move on, is a process and sometimes a painful one. Now you may think that is a romantic relationship. It actually is not, because I moved on from past experiences already. I’m talking about childhood experiences that Im dealing with step by step. I ask myself “why do I act a certain way?” “Why am I sometimes bitter about things or that?” “What let me here?” Etc. Is simple little experiences have led me to face my truth so that I can be great tomorrow. That relationship that didn’t work out, oh yes there’s a reason for it. Your family falling apart there’s a reason for it as well. You having to work for everything with very little to no help and not asking for handouts oh yes is building to be self sufficient. Actually I want some help sometimes, like I don’t want to do everything alone and truth is you need someone you can not do things alone not even starting a business or making a baby, helllooo. Is building you to make you stronger.
I have really bad trust issues overall because when you do open up to people, others take advantage of it. They weren’t the right people or maybe in their life at the time we’re not ready to be loyal. People preach so much about being loyal even having it tattooed in their bodies but are you actually practicing what you got inked in your body ?? Or if you have trust issues , are you trustable. This is the latest question I asked myself. Of course you’ll say yes but break it down step by step . You have trust issues, you won’t let anyone else in to your space but then flip it and see how it feels? You’ll be on the defense but then just let go of the past and don’t judge a books by its cover. You gotta trust someone right?
I hope you understand where I’m coming from with this post, I know is a little all over the place, lol. The theme is TRUST, trusting someone , trusting yourself,l. To do that , you have to forgive, let go. You can’t trust if you can’t let go and if you can’t let go you’ll stay stuck where you at and most likely alone. I believe we all have something traumatic that has happened to us and we still have not fully embraced it and till we embrace it, we will never let go. These are my thoughts from these past few days and wanted to share it with you.