I was feeling so down on myself yesterday. So the day before I ate a tuna spinach salad and a cauliflower the day before. I woke up the next day and I decided to weight myself and it says 5 pounds more. WTF? How I’ve been working very hard on my body and my eating habits to loose these last remaining 20 pounds I’m missing and I’m 5 pounds more? Mind you yesterday I went jean shopping and I dropped 3 sizes. So why is the scale saying something else.
When I weight myself, My self esteem dropped. I let the scale define my worth and my whole day. It took over my mind all day, I was so mad but mostly disappointed. I tried saying affirmations to myself but yesterday it did not worked. I spoke to my co worker about the issue and she checked me about my body insecurities. I’ve had body insecurities always and I’m moving towards a place that I’m developing a thick skin. In the beginning of my journey I was checking the scale everyday to check my progress then it became once a week. In the last few weeks is been everyday again and yesterday was the realization that I need to separate myself from the scale. Honestly when I check the scale, I do not like how it makes me feel, but I still check it. Pero why? Why must we allow ourselves to let a machine define our confidence. I have these small insecurities and yet a scale took over me for a day. I sit back and I had to really evaluate myself about this issue.
I like the person I am and when I take pictures I like to check my progress through it. Detaching myself from the scale would be best for my self esteem and my mind. The same way I detached myself from social media for 4 four months, Ill do it with the scale. I’m human and I have real feelings, sometimes I’m up and confident and other times like yesterday I’m like WTF?