I recently was cleaning up my bookshelf and book boxes cause I got a lot of them lol and came across some journals. I read some of my past journal entries and OMG what I can say is GROWTH. I read some entries from like two years ago and I am so glad I am not in that state of mind. I also realized how much I didn’t believe in myself. I was in a very place a few years back because I was overwhelmed with work and I allowed people to take advantage of me both professionally and personally. But then some path in life you have to take so you can grow and take you on the path that you need to be. Professionally some experiences have shaped where I’m at right now for starters I won’t work another big company again. I will stick to small business because you connect with your employees more and small business benefits the community. Also is less stress and less people. When you work in corporate environment, there’s a set of rules you have to follow and you have to deal with many people and their rules. Also you not connecting with the customer really or with the employees.
Personally I’ve always been private about that because we living in such a public world that is okay to have some things to yourself. Personally I learned that you date your self esteem and you date a reflection of you. What does that mean? Who ever you date is a reflection of how you feel about yourself and the person you are dating should be someone that makes you smile, happy, someone you can grow with, etc. not someone that drains you and makes you sad. I learned that you need time to heal before jumping into a new partnership. After I broke up with my partner, I started dating someone that we had a lot in common but soon as I was in the relationship I realized I didn’t feel anything for him and I was with him for comfort. I was hiding pain and I realized that wasn’t okay . You need time to heal of pain and be with yourself.
Journaling was my therapy you can say in a lot of bad times for me . I’ve been journaling since I was 15 or 16 . Journaling was there through my depression, anxiety, college, highschool, breakups, make ups , sex , etc. is therapeutic for me and you can always go back and re read your entries. Is always been hard for me to say things in words so writing was my therapy. Some people may take it the wrong way and before I was very angry so I would say words just to say it. Everyday is an improvement for yourself. After reading those entries I wrote a new one two pages long on my growth (spiritually,mentally, physically) . Find something that is therapeutic that can help you through tough time