February is a nice month . There’s tons of birthdays in my family. Is the love month and Dominican Independence Day (February 27). For some people when Valentine’s Day comes up and they don’t have someone , they feel a little sad about it. When you find yourself in this position, this would be perfect time to focus on your attention to yourself.
I’m single and no not ready to mingle because I want to work on repairing the relationship that I have with myself. Everyday I’m discovering little pieces of me I didn’t know I had and I do with new habits I’ve started. I’ve written about my new habits I’ve done to help me grow as a person. I’ve discussed my relationship with my body that still has its negative effects however is way better than it was a month ago. I take pictures of myself look myself in the mirror and say something nice about me. I credit Pinterest for it lol I was searching for affirmations and a 30 day I love me challenge popped in and I started to do it. It has helped me look at myself in a positive way instead of me pointing out the negative most of the time.
I’ve had body insecurities all of my life I’ll say even when I thought I was big which I wasn’t I had insecurities (men hate it FYI) . I’ve taken a few weight loss “goals “ but this recent one was different , I’ve lost over 25 pounds in 8 months on my own . Sometimes I still body shame myself but then I think like “Yaddy you lost over 25 pounds on your own , like you doing your thing”. Baby steps little reminders that I am a strong person and anything I set my mind to do , I’ll do it . When I started this weight loss journey in June 2017 I said I want to loose at least 20 pounds by end of year. I lost it within five months. Is hard especially as you get older but then I think “would I appreciate it if I would of taken the easy route ?” No I would not.
Every little bit of the relationship you are developing with yourself counts. Emotionally , mentally, physically, etc. counts. For example , when I say “why doesn’t my gut go down is always there and it looks like it doesn’t want to move ? “ but then I’ve learned to correct myself like “no yaddy your gut is your gut and is unique that you need to figure out its uniqueness “. I’m correcting myself because I’m learning to be impeccable with my word and when you are impeccable with your word you are impeccable with yourself(4 agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz ).
So I say Today I love me because I’m strong and resilient woman that has survived so many road blocks and still I am here. I’m better than I was yesterday (like literally) and continue to improve myself. I see my flaws and I acknowledge them but I also see my dope ness and celebrate them. I’m an amazing person that has more to give to herself then to everyone else .